How to be a good artist

“To be an artist you have to give up everything, including the desire to be a good artist.” – Jasper Johns

When I was seventeen years old, I kind of figured that I was better at writing than those around me. Had won a few competitions, and all my teachers were impressed by what I could write.

I wanted to be good. I wanted to be the best. I had the type of goals that one cannot utter out loud for fear of being locked away in a mental institution.

I liked to impress people, and then I would also impress myself.

I’d write short stories the day before a deadline. Soon, I became complacent. I thought that I was so good that I just had to stroll my fingers across a keyboard and magic would appear on my computer screen.

It did not work well.

As a matter of fact, I spent the next eight years without earning a dime from writing. A single dollar. Nothing. Nada. I kept writing though, but I did not give a damn about anything really.

The truth is that rebels hate their rebellion, hate the thing that makes them different. I just thought that I’d write and write and write and then I’d probably die. Poor, alone, sick, tired…

I actually convinced myself that no one liked me, no one cared about me, and that writing was the one thing that mattered. Yet, I was also convinced that my words only mattered to me. I was so afraid of rejection that I self-published my novels the moment I found out about Amazon’s KDP and Smashwords.

People don’t usually describe passion like this. The thing is, I wrote because that was the one thing I knew to do. Good or bad, it didn’t matter.

Being self-conscious about one’s art is not the best thing to do. No one cares what you think about the things you create. They don’t. They form an opinion based on their own tastes and whatnot, but they do not care what is your favorite of your novels, or how much you adore this or that painting of yours.

Nothing really matters. Not your opinion, not theirs. All that matters is being able to create. The act of creation is the magic, is the answer, is what you should focus on.

Being so immersed in the art you’re creating that the world fades away. There’s nothing else but you and your art. You and what you’re building. You are creating something out of nothing, using nothing but will power.

Nothing else matters.

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5 thoughts on “How to be a good artist

  1. Well said Christian. I think the greatest joy in the creative process is becoming a conduit that is always empty and because of this always full. I wish I could always be there, but self-consciousness and doubt creep in as well. In some ways I think that even the dark side of creation, the ability and necessity to feel a range of emotion including negative ones are important hues on the artist’s palette when those precious times come and we loose ourselves and discover our artistic voice.

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